I can do this, I CAN do this.

So Matt has left the country.

He left yesterday morning.

It was hard, man was it hard.

Yesterday was a so-so day. I only had 2 major break downs 

one was in the morning and then one at bed time.

I was lucky and I could fall asleep, I was afraid I wouldn't be able to.

But I had to pull out my teddy bear and snuggle with it to do so.

Today was a good day.

I went dress shopping AND found THE dress.

(I will share that story another day)

I had a girls night and watched Beauty and the Beast.

It was much needed.

I am so scared to be without him.

He is my best friend, we are always together

and not just because we HAVE to be but because we WANT to be.

The longest we have been apart is a week, so this is a whole new experience.

I can't imagine when it comes to be March and 2 months have past and I am use to being without him.

I hate looking forward to March and knowing that will be my new "norm"

We are able to email each other and skype but in 2 weeks they are taking away their wireless.

Which is understandable because he doesn't need to be skyping, emailing, or facebooking

all the time while he is there but I know once that is gone, communicating

will be less.

I am scared.

I have cried every time we say "good night" while skpying.

Pushing the end button is so, so hard.

 

 

(113 days to go)